I wish nothing more than to sit by you
arms strong and silent holding the soft air
stillness all around but the gently chirps and rustles
of a flying birds, wing to the rising world
I breathe you in
I surrender a moment and two
tll the world pulls me back
honking and ringing and blinging.
might I hold this stillness in my heart today
as galaxies spin and my world turns and tumbles
Such a large presence.
so planted and unmoving,
seemingly almost is invisible
until I look.
And there you are.
happy solstice all.
Today is the shortest day of the year, did you know?
I went to the Providence Shambala Center to celebrate; meditated with a bunch of very quiet people. then we did walking meditation. then we meditated again. back and forth for 2 hours.
wonderful, trying, wonderful, you know how this kind of thing usually goes.
I feel very full of nothing
and that’s a great thing.
I went to a store afterwards and wished the cashier a happy solstice–he didn’t know what it was. I felt so happy to inform him of the magnitude of this day!
enjoy the stillness.
a moment, an hour or two, a day
that’s what this time is for
rest your weary bones and be glad.
I appreciate the new day. I appreciate the softness of the clouds cover. The birds that sing to greet it. the quiet that the early hours hold. I drink that quiet into my body and allow it to relax every muscle and bone, every thought.
And what I’ve noticed is it lingers. I feel that calmness as something I can feel inside; I can go back to through the day.. My body remembers the feeling of this surrender.
the house is pretty clean now.
Well, there’s stuff, but the clutter has been tamed for now.
Darn, now I have to just be. What a terrifying Idea this morning.
breathing in, I am alive, breathing out, you are alive.
breathing in and out, we will both be gone one day
Breathing in and out, I am here with you now.
(This is a Meditation from Thick Nhat Hahn; photo by Philip Van Nostrum)
Meditation. I’ve had a long and interesting journey with it. When I was 19 I joined a spiritual community based on the teachings of Paramahansa Yogananda (That’s why I live in Santa Barbara, thank you Sunburst).
For the next 7 years I pretty much meditated my brains out. I’d wake up pre-dawn and meditate, go to an hour group meditation, go to work and come home for another hour-long group meditation and then meditate before bed again. You could say I was a fanatic, but we all were zealous-that was the protocol for finding God, and what else was more important?
It was an extremely challenging and also amazing experience. I had incredible darkness and incredible lightness of being. I guess that’s how life goes in general, but that inner journey was truly profound for me..
What’s true is that in those seven years of intense introspection, I cultivated an amazing serenity that I can access even now, when I give myself the space to go within. When I stop to think of it, it is truly amazing.
But over the years, out of rebellion and shear laziness, my so-called ‘practice’ of meditating got shoved by the wayside. Yes, every time I’d sit down and breathe into my present moment I could access profound ecstasy, by why bother when there’s so much else to do???!?!?!?!?! Well, that’s just how the ol’ brain works, don’t it?