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that one thing

This day
do one thing
that most important thing
that thing that you’ve
been putting off
that one thing
that will bring you closer
to that one big goal
that thrills you.
sheets to the wind
arms to the sky
call that person
write that song
say those words
shave that head
what is it…
What would that be for you right now?

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feel the words come
not just the ordinary
blah blah
but the flash of yes
that lights up your spine
and goes forth raw and real
the words that don’t give a crop
what others might think
that care deeply for tender and broken parts
that heals and holds the knowing
life has brought
the perfect storm of you
let your words pour forth


tell me divine fool
where does your joydurvish
sparkle like the bright sun
on the waters
of your swirling ocean?
tell me bright one
where does your heart leap
How does your wind call
so strong across the hills?
tell me dear friend
what does your single song
sing so loud so full?
Come holy hell
come high water
come this life so full
let us celebrate

I love the sunrise

I love the sun rise
I love the color of the light through the curtainsIMG_5062
spreading golden softness across the room
I find love in odd places
a word, a breath, a bottle cap, a smile
I am full of wonder
as the leaves gently greet me from the big oak
in a great gathering of sparkling
The air is full of summer and sizzle
triumphant big yes and yes again
I open to that big yes
I open to this day softly rising
And with this tender whisper of breath
I offer myself into awakening

feel you way rather than think your way

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feel the feeling
find your fondness
feel into that fondness
the skip of breath
the whirl of weight
the full fling of ferocious now

even now it dares dance to your every heartbeat
try as it might to be subtle, to tip toe, to not disturb your silly stupor
fondness can’t help but fly
with untidy smiling
it ignites the funful flury.

find your fondness
feel the feeling
feel into that whirling of being
the fulness flying
full fling ferocious now

Volcanoes and Sledgehammers

Sometime life gets rocky.
Sometimes I take the long road home.

I let things slide, don’t speak up. I get small. I take the easy way out. I think someone else will say what I want to say. I procrastinate till ‘the right time’ (that for some reason, never comes)… And of course I just hope it will all just go away, blow away, skip and whirl away with the wind.

I forget that life is here for me. I forget in that moment that am here to grow and evolve. And that I have something to say, and that something is important. It’s my view- the world of Nicola. That when life gives me taps, it’s for my learning. I could so easily respond in that moment.volcano

If I don’t listen, the little tiny tap just might turn into a sledgehammer. Or the internal pressure might build and I turn from a meek little mouse into an erupting volcano. All sorts of things can happen. And of course do.

I now recommit to owning my feelings. feeling them fully; I choose to listen for and to my intuition; speaking up when I have something to say.
Now I remember, oh yes, It’s a lot easier in the long run to be honest and true to myself and others. For some very good reason, they say, it’s the best policy. Amen brothers and sisters.

the Arc of Birth to Death

Science will save me.
God probably will.
I’ll go on google and find the answer.
I’ll exercise every day.
This vitamin will help, research has proven it…dad playing around

I’ve lived the first 30 or so years feeling rather immortal in a naive sort of way.
Some people might die but not me.

Then my mom died.
That wasn’t supposed to happen; maybe to others, but not me.

Then a series of friends departed in their own unique ways;
Some in an instant, others slowly,
Some fought it to the end, some came to terms with it. Continue reading

Growing Pains

Whats one thing you could do today?Are you comfortable? Things kinda OK? My friend and Screenshot 2014-03-24 11.46.25mentor Jody Clegg just informed me that there is no success in the comfort zone. You get comfy, you get fat and lazy and then you die (he didn’t say that, I just made it up).

Start noticing the things you get inspired to do but stop yourself. I know alot of times, I wake up in the morning, totally inspired to call this person, do this or that, and as the day wanes on, I loose my initial oomph. So lately, I’ve been taking notes on my morning inspiration and committing to follow through with at least one of them.

I remember when my son was about 12 years old he grew almost a foot in a year (yes, he is tall–6’5’). He had actual growing pains. His bones ached.

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