two three four
precious the water that falls from the sky
precious these moments that spill from the cup of this life.
hello to the rain
and hello again.
i am here
thanking the little drops
that fall from the sky
and plop on my head
Last night the sky was on fire
The fingers of the fading day reached out
Shouted such a strong embrace
Ending are beginnings
Beginnings are endings
Transition is strong medicine
Drink it in.
I love the sun rise
I love the color of the light through the curtains
spreading golden softness across the room
I find love in odd places
a word, a breath, a bottle cap, a smile
I am full of wonder
as the leaves gently greet me from the big oak
in a great gathering of sparkling
The air is full of summer and sizzle
triumphant big yes and yes again
I open to that big yes
I open to this day softly rising
And with this tender whisper of breath
I offer myself into awakening
feel you way rather than think your way
feel the feeling
find your fondness
feel into that fondness
the skip of breath
the whirl of weight
the full fling of ferocious now
even now it dares dance to your every heartbeat
try as it might to be subtle, to tip toe, to not disturb your silly stupor
fondness can’t help but fly
with untidy smiling
it ignites the funful flury.
find your fondness
feel the feeling
feel into that whirling of being
the fulness flying
full fling ferocious now
Sometime life gets rocky.
Sometimes I take the long road home.
I let things slide, don’t speak up. I get small. I take the easy way out. I think someone else will say what I want to say. I procrastinate till ‘the right time’ (that for some reason, never comes)… And of course I just hope it will all just go away, blow away, skip and whirl away with the wind.
I forget that life is here for me. I forget in that moment that am here to grow and evolve. And that I have something to say, and that something is important. It’s my view- the world of Nicola. That when life gives me taps, it’s for my learning. I could so easily respond in that moment.
If I don’t listen, the little tiny tap just might turn into a sledgehammer. Or the internal pressure might build and I turn from a meek little mouse into an erupting volcano. All sorts of things can happen. And of course do.
I now recommit to owning my feelings. feeling them fully; I choose to listen for and to my intuition; speaking up when I have something to say.
Now I remember, oh yes, It’s a lot easier in the long run to be honest and true to myself and others. For some very good reason, they say, it’s the best policy. Amen brothers and sisters.
Science will save me.
God probably will.
I’ll go on google and find the answer.
I’ll exercise every day.
This vitamin will help, research has proven it…
I’ve lived the first 30 or so years feeling rather immortal in a naive sort of way.
Some people might die but not me.
Then my mom died.
That wasn’t supposed to happen; maybe to others, but not me.
Then a series of friends departed in their own unique ways;
Some in an instant, others slowly,
Some fought it to the end, some came to terms with it. Continue reading
Whats one thing you could do today?Are you comfortable? Things kinda OK? My friend and mentor Jody Clegg just informed me that there is no success in the comfort zone. You get comfy, you get fat and lazy and then you die (he didn’t say that, I just made it up).
Start noticing the things you get inspired to do but stop yourself. I know alot of times, I wake up in the morning, totally inspired to call this person, do this or that, and as the day wanes on, I loose my initial oomph. So lately, I’ve been taking notes on my morning inspiration and committing to follow through with at least one of them.
I remember when my son was about 12 years old he grew almost a foot in a year (yes, he is tall–6’5’). He had actual growing pains. His bones ached.