It is enough to just be
Ragged and rowdy
You are enough
Just as you are
In all your splendid and polished imperfection
As the mist settles across the horizon
I’ve been looking at this video every day, saying goodbye to the big glorious home that my parents loved so well; letting go, letting be. What a huge transition for me. I am honoring this time to feel into my growing and evolving, to witnessing the elder in me slowly peeping it’s head out.
I commit to easeful integration of this transition and bless all that has happened in this house, in this town, in my life with two remarkable parents who I know did the best they could, just as I am doing.
God and Goddess rest my soul upon this knowing, that all is well.
I’m home. Hello Santa Barbara. Hello little home. Trying to fit the new me into the old box. Went through photos, old clothes, instruments. feeling into the sands of Santa Barbara after almost a month of absence. Who am I now?
The hills are drier. The air is thicker with the morning cloud cover. I saw a few blue jays, told them about their relatives in Rhode Island. Loud, noisy, beautiful birds you are. Took Shystie for a walk. The doggies are doggies, I’m me; a little discombobulated, not use to this location shifting life. The garden is alive but not happy with my absence. Summer. Summer. Hello summer.
I went to the park. saw some of you guys, saw alot of you guys actually. Summer solstice. The brilliance of the sun is upon us now. Thank you Santa Barbara for welcoming me into your arms. Thank you home for holding space through my absence. Thank you doggies for remembering me and wagging your tails at the sun.
The longest day of the year. The shortest night. May the joy that you are be illuminated by the brilliance of this day.
Happy summer solstice.
There are forces beyond my control. I gotta remember that.
My mind is trying so hard to figure this all out. Then sometimes, there is a knowing that just hits, often times first thing in the morning after wrestling with something all night.
I have my opinions, and so does every body else. I gotta remember that.
I forget and remember my sense of enlightenment. I dive in and out of entitlement and entrenchment. Like waves on the shore I am remembering my humanness and my godliness, breathing in, breathing out.
Breathing in love to myself, breathing out love to you.