Nicola Gordon: blog

A few months ago I realized that it was time to leave my residence of 17 years.  It was summer. I had the time; I'd been contemplating this for a while.  Every time I felt into it if it was time, I got a big fat YES, so I gave notice.  A few days before it was time to leave it suddenly dawned on me, this was a way bigger event than I had imagined.  Why did I decide to do this?  I have WAY more stuff than I thought...there is so much to clean... I'm never gonna get this all done on time...what was I thinking?

Then I remember that big fat YES I had to doing it in the first place.  I returned to that initial inspiration:  Yes, it's time.  I opened to that YES.  It all flowed graciously from that point on.  Angels (my friends) helped, things fell into line, I got out easefully with two hours to spare.  Magic.

Around that same time I decided to move, I bumped into Robinson, the engineer of my past CDs.  It had been awhile since my last CD of original songs, 7 years to be exact.  I'm always writing, and I had oodles of songs screaming out to be recorded.  Robinson told me he had the time.  I had time too (what's alittle moving?!?), there was that big fat YES.  I decided to go for it. 

Money? someone told me about this Kickstarter thing, I checked it out and here we are rolling along.   the past few days, I've been getting scared. We are getting near deadline, not quite cutting the mustard... what was I thinking?  This will never work! Why did I decide to do this now?  Last night I went for a long walk/run and howled (in my head) at the full moon.  Released my fears, remembered once again that big huge YES I had to doing this project.

Well guess what?  This morning a friend emailed me.  He and his wife are going to take up the slack on Sunday if I haven't made the goal.  It's working out.  More than anything I'm amazed at the magic of listening to the big fat YES and taking the leap.

Thankyou all for sharing this grand adventure.  You got any big fat YES's wanting to happen? 

Jump!!

Nicola

p.s. check out this video:

Hell Yeah or No from Derek Sivers on Vimeo.