It could be better.

pink treesToday is the raw material for you to mould as you will (I first wrote ‘mold’, I knew something was wrong there!). Do you worry about the outcome? Are you resisting something? Do you find your self fretting about this or that? Of course, that is part of it all.

Well, whenever you do notice yourself in that worry space, here’s a chance to try an experiment, take a different approach.

A worry thought? Oh, my! stop take a breath.  Now say thank you to the worry thought.  Really? Really! ….Thank you for waking me up.

Then ask, ‘I wonder how this situation could turn out better than I even imagined?’ Send love and positive expectation forward into your day and see if the world suddenly seems a little friendlier.

 

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This Supremely Messy Life

Breathing into this cloud-covered morning2014-02-02 06.57.38, the light streaming through the window, triumphantly proclaiming yet another new day.

Honoring my fear and my excitement about my own steps to take this day, coaching, connections, new programs, laundry, gardens, old songs, new song, classes. Holding my Dad and his challenges, getting the front rail put in, getting ready to travel…
…oh and there’s more…

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Your wild dream

Take the time to feel the empty spaces. path wildfwers
The spaces hold possibility.
In the cracks between worlds all things are possible.

What is your wild dream?
What is your most vibrant truth for this life?
What is your gift to give?

Go to that open space of possibility and hold these sacred questions.
Place them on the altar of your emptiness.
Give thanks as this new day comes into your being and lights the way.

There is space for you and your expression in this world.

Is it time?
What would you do?

 

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Baby Steps

dancing orchidToday is a new day. What does that mean? That means you can make new decisions; have a new commitment to your joy…whatever that is. It doesn’t have to be a big woew-zam-change-everything blitzkrieg.  What about baby steps, just commit to leaning into whatever joy is calling at the moment?

An small act of kindness towards someone out of the blue, taking a moment to admire a cool flower, a smile as a person is passing, a prayer for someone you know could use it, a letting go of a grudge, a little dance between your desk and the water cooler…

What little steps could you take to lean towards joy today?

 

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Gratitude for the Learning

Can you be grateful for the pain?

Can you see, even a little bit, how having this experience is cracking you open?

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I know, looking back it’s a lot easier to see it.  And sometimes that’s all you can do.

I see that breaking up with my husband, wow, now exactly 30 years ago, was one of the most profound shifts, hardest lessons and deepest learnings I have had in my life.

At the time, I was running for my life, and the life of my child. I realized I might physically died if I stayed, and I was terrified to leave. Having an almost 2-year old child in toe, no money and no place to go added a little to the intensity. I chose to leave.

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The Wild Beast

I have a wild beast in me.  She comes at odd times. She’s a hungry beast. She roams the kitchen looking for her rexprey.  Popcorn, chips, sugar stuff, chocolate, fried food…all the things I know I ‘shouldn’t’ eat, and, quite frankly, I don’t have a lot of in my house.  Roar, where’s the chocolate? Roar, let’s have a pop tart..roar…maybe two…rrrroarrrr!  She on the prowl, ready to devour.  If the call is strong enough, there’s no stopping her.

Over the years, I have succumbed to her, I have fought with her, tried to cage her with diets and fasting, which only makes her more ferocious. Over the years, I am learning to make her my friend.

 At first, I was pretty much at her mercy. I still have this memory, my first year of college, far from home, freaked out and 17, Madison, Wisconsin; sitting with a friend in front of the dorms and eating, together, a big ol’ honkin’ loaf of french bread. Weird. I never got fat. My metabolism didn’t do that. I just got sick.  I got sick a lot as a child.

What I have found through years of twists and turns, is that this wild beast in me is my ally. She’s the guardian at the gate of my strong emotions. Emotions that I have stuffed because, for some reason or another, they were not safe to feel. old, outdated reasons. When I take the time to stop and actually let myself feel, the beast calms down. 

What I have also noticed in my exploration is that the beast thrives in the shadows.  She lurks in secret places. As soon as I call her out, bring her into the light of awareness, face into what is going on, she starts to loose her ferocity.

I can’t say I’m ‘cured’, don’t think I ever will be.  Through all my humanness, the hungry beast is there. She is the gateway to those feelings I might try to deny, hide, run from, project onto others. Yep, there’s another one, and another…I have come to appreciate the her in me as a present, wild and powerful companion.

 I don’t know if you remember my potato chip exploration a while back, this is definitely a continuation of that post.  I don’t have alcohol addiction, cigarettes or heroin, but I have food.  In this day and age we all have pretty easy access to whatever we want food-wise.  My drug of choice.  And since I haven’t figured out how to give it up totally, and quite frankly don’t want to, it’s a provocative dance that returns many times during the day.

What is your drug of choice?  Socially acceptable things like potato chips n’ ice cream, or maybe the ‘heavier’ stuff?  It’s all the same cry. What screams to you when big feelings come on?  I invite you to stop, to notice, to open the gates of your inner world. Share your exploration with someone safe, get it out of hiding.

The wild beast is trying to tell you something. 

Is it time to listen? 

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Linger Longer in Gratitude

Linger longer in gratitude.

Gratitude is the cure for all lack
the elixir of being
rainbowthe opening of doors
a returning home

Linger longer in gratitude.

What do you want in your life?
Be grateful as if whatever it is you so earnestly desire,
is there.
Why do you want it?
Can you hear the cry for a return to essence within it?
find the possibility of that essence inside
dwell in it
be grateful for it
Feel the blessing of that essence.
It is there.
It is there.

Linger longer in gratitude.

be humbled by the gift
the gift of life, yes this life.
What could you be grateful for?
Right now?

Linger longer in gratitude.

What are you grateful for?
What could you be grateful for?
Who could you be grateful for?
Why?

Linger longer in gratitude.

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I am Safe

It’s safe to be me.
It’s safe to be in my power
I am safe.

When you read these words, what happens?
Do you believe it?
Can you feel it?
Do you know it’s safe to be you?
Do you know it’s safe to be in your power?

battleIf you watch Game of Thrones or believe in past lives, you know that’s not true. Round ever bend is someone out to get you. And one can only imagine what could have happened to you over lifetimes of living and dying on this earth…

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Notice whatever comes up.
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You Are Important

you are important.
You are loved.lions
You matter.
I see you.
What you have to say matters.
I want to hear you.
I hear you.
I cherish you.
I love you.
I care what you feel.
I care how you are feeling.
I want to hear from you.
I care for you and how you feel.
I see you.
You are special.
You are so important to me.
You are loved.

Do you believe that?
How many times do you tell yourself other than that?
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Celebrate Spaciousness

I’ve been giving myself long meditating these past few mornings. The world inside and outside changes. I am so grateful for time in silence. and how it fills me.2014-07-21 19.53.42

I appreciate the new day. I appreciate the softness of the clouds cover. The birds that sing to greet it. the quiet that the early hours hold. I drink that quiet into my body and allow it to relax every muscle and bone, every thought.

And what I’ve noticed is it lingers. I feel that calmness as something I can feel inside; I can go back to through the day.. My body remembers the feeling of this surrender.

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